I’m not afraid every day I wake up and realize I’ve become stronger and braver.
Those with negative comments I will not condemn.
I’m not posting and speaking out because I need your sympathy on the issue but I’ve come to realize that I should not be ashamed of being a victim of an abuser and of being in an abusive relationship I’m only human I have loved, I hope for change, I believe in second chances and I believe in forgiveness.
But everyone has a limit.
Maybe you have never being in my situation and maybe it’s hard for you to feel the pains threat and danger that follow. I’m probably not going to be safe at all after I speak out but I’m willing to make the change at some point we have to look ahead don’t look back, be brave lift our head up and speak, stand up for yourself cause no one else will.
I can get all the hugs, kisses, advises and sympathy I appreciate it, it’s comforting and has made me even stronger but no one knows what goes on inside no one can actually feel the pain as I write here I cry my tears cannot bring back my unborn or erase my pains emotionally nor physically.
Many may think it’s cruel to stab someone but if it’s your only chance of survival. What would you do?
Imagine being beaten about your body then to the ground and being kicked in your abdomen after a surgery with the words ‘I will kill u tonight’
Today I could have being a statistic adding to the number of women killed via violence.
It is funny and sad to hear the politicians talk about the campaign against domestic violence, investing millions to “stamp it out” etc when what I am experiencing is hi-tech domestic violence and persecution. Our President is using his office and state resources including Ministers unprofessionally to disadvantage a woman.
former first lady, varshnie singh, august 2010. loveless, stressful & abusive. my fake marriage to bharrat jagdeo